Absurdity

Hangal

Isa kang kang hangal.

Umaasa muli sa wala. Ilang beses ka bang kailangang masaktan upang pigilin ang sarili mo? Hanggang ngayon ba'y hindi mo alam kung ano ang nakabubuti sa iyo?

Wala kang kwenta.

Idiin mo yan sa iyong utak.

Wala kang kwenta.

Kinakausap ang sarili? Nasiraan ka na ba ng bait? Akala mo naman kung umasa ka sa magagandang bagay ay mawawala na agad ang takip-silim ng iyong buhay?

Nandito pa ako. Kumakatok sa likuran ng iyong isipan. Hindi ako mawawala. Hanggat hindi mo naaalis ang iyong katangahan, hindi ako mawawala.

 Perhaps I have gone off the rocker in non-clinical ways. The author may have not directly told me that this particular blog post he made was for me but I know it's for me. 

He said almost the same thing a few days later.

Just maybe, nothing is solved by hoping on something good. I know this. I just forget that I do. I have lived a live learning that nothing in life is permanent and that there is nothing really to hold on to. 

The twilight will come and I am sure it will.But can I not make due of what I have in an attempt to make the dawn give way to a better day?

I am not saying that I do not need help or companionship or friendship for that matter. But is there not a time when one should turn in and give up? 

There are some things in this world resolve never comes into terms with.